| I'm too tired with this already but it's never going to stop, will it?
I just want to do things I want to and have fun without being fearful of it. I've been too much of a party-pooper. I don't want to keep being uptight when I'm too close to the walls or check every corner for it. And it's no fun having my heart stop for a while at every slight movement though it may quite well be my shadow or reflection.
It's affecting me way too much. |
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Back hurts! Eyes sleepy. But so far, I think I'm okay. Just need a peace of mind, that's all. And yes, PEACE.
Why is everybody getting pretty except me? *Angry face* |
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| Dilemmas.
That's what life is full of. You know, sometimes I question myself what do I want to be as a person. It's like... whether I want to wear the hijab or dress as I do now (or sexier, I admit). That's one of the things. Good side, bad side. Is there such thing as a middle ground? I guess I hate choosing sides. I think I'm afraid to commit. What if I'm being myself but it's seen as wrong in God's eyes? What if I'm doing the right thing but am insincere which caused me to feel oppressed? I find myself torn apart in almost everything, really. Forever indecisive. Wouldn't it be good if it was charming to be undecided like how Robert Pattinson was in 'Remember Me'? (No I am not a fan of him tyvm) Well, life ain't a movie.
Middle's a bad place to be by the way. And by middle, I don't mean there's balance. |
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| It's 2:34 am. I'm awake (duh). Frustrations creeping in. Man, I need my time too man. I DON'T WANT to get this done at my own disadvantage. I think I've done more than enough. Seriously, just because I compile doesn't mean I have to complete your sentences.
Friends... may not be the ideal group mates. I shall anticipate panda eyes. |
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| I'm tired. Doesn't help that I am only progressive at night, I just realized. Sleeping late and waking up early. Panda eyes and terrible headaches. I need to find some way to change this.
One week til exams. And yeap, I've not repent. |
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